Confessions

I've been up for days, trying to find a way

To write this confession down

Seems every line I writes a mess

At least this I'll admit

For what I've done I am not proud

There's no need to pretend

No need for innocence

I've got to be honest now

My verdict has come in it says I'm guilty for my sins this time

I thought I could escape, but then I finally felt the weight of my crimes

Its passion, it's not love, infatuation never ends up right

At least I won't be alone tonight

Cause I don't want to be alone tonight

The prosecution rests, with convincing evidence

But it seems I've been deceived

So now I stand alone

& wait for the first stone

to be cast upon me

My verdict has come in it says I'm guilty for my sins this time

I thought I could escape, but then I finally felt the weight of my crimes

Its passion, it's not love, infatuation never ends up right

At least I won't be alone tonight

Cause I don't want to be alone tonight

--------------------------------------------------------

This pretty much sums up my life right now

I can't believe that I was suspended over a pass

I can't believe that no one that I thought would be concerned has been

It just goes to show, I can't count on anyone anymore

I know that I should be excited for life & for my friends, but I'm not

I should be enthused that Nikki will be an hour away from me at Wellesley, & though I'm glad we'll get to see each other, I wish I was closer to Raquel. I just wish that I knew how she felt about me... & I don't. 

I'm over life right now.

But things will be better, right?

They have to be. 

I guess until next time I'm still living life between thoughts.